NICK HAWK - HANG ON TIGHT!
By Marla Santos
He craved excitement and is now living the exciting life, stating: “If you want to be a better cook, take a cooking class with a chef. If you want to be better with women, take a class with me.”
Nick Hawk is best known as one of five male escorts who star in Showtime’s hit adult reality show, “Gigolos”. All 54 episodes were seen in seven different countries and the show has become a huge success.
The interesting thing is that all five of the men are real-life gigolos who work for Garren James’ straight Elite Male Escort service for women: Cowboys4Angels.com. Hawk thinks that the “Gigolos” show has helped to open up people’s views on sexual freedom, tattoos, and freedom of individuality. His “Nick Hawk Gigolo” collection includes his book, “Nick Hawk Gigolo Sexual Positions”, and “Sexoirs of a Gigolo: Nick Hawk”, a book detailing his erotic tales of being a gigolo. He recently finished a new book titled: “Nick Hawk’s 100 Kicks In The Ass: A Guide To Gaining Confidence & Reaching Your Full Potential.” On top of being an actor, an author, and entrepreneur, Hawk is a motivational speaker, coaching men on how to develop their confidence to approach and treat women. Hawk has a brown belt in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, and has also released 12 soundtracks that he produced and sang on. He calls the track, “We Fight”, his masterpiece, as it represents him, his talent, hard work and what he stands for. Both of his songs: “We Fight” and “Born To Be Bad”, are included in the movie, American Justice.
Hawk is a complex man and has the stamina and exuberance for life that allows him to knock adventures off the biggest bucket list I’ve ever seen, and all while getting paid big bucks to accompany women anywhere around the world that they wish to go. Recently Hawk insured his penis for $1 million dollars, and even had a mold made of it during one of the “Gigolos” episodes.
STRIPLV: What does insuring your penis for $1M cover?
HAWK: I believe it covers everything, including theft. (lots of laughter) It covers accidents that will lead to it not functioning. I got great PR off of it. I got an article in Cosmopolitan, and TMZ covered it. It was one of my smartest ideas. It was good PR, but it was legit, too. It is a concern, especially with the popularity of “50 Shades of Grey” and me being this “bad-boy character with tattoos.” Women think they can abuse me more than the average guy. Someone who’s inexperienced can get a little out of hand and go a little too far and not be aware of everything that’s happening and possibly go a little hard, and if it slips out, it can break and be damaged.
STRIPLV: Speaking of your penis, you recently added a tattoo to it to complete the rest of your large tattoos. How did you endure the pain?
HAWK: I didn’t stand the pain. It sucked! I had a few drinks in me, for sure, and I had to hold it, too. I had to bend it over my hand so he could tattoo it. That was the deal. He would tattoo it, if I would hold it. It was hell!! I had my armpit done and my inner knee, and they all suck. I actually think I’d have my cock done again before I’d have my inner knee done or on top of scar tissue. They all suck! I wouldn’t go back and do it again! I wanted tattoos my whole life, so I started going to the tattoo shop once a week before taping “Gigolos”. I knew I didn’t want tribal or flames, so I chose a Symbiote as my main tattoo. It covers half my body, including my left arm, chest and penis. It’s an alien creature from comic books that attaches to you. It has to do with superheroes and superpowers, and can increase confidence, so you are less worried. The creature can also bring out your dark side, and some people thought that dealing with the adult industry could take you to a dark place. I wanted this balanced yin/yang sort of thing, and now I’ve added color to show how I’ve evolved in my life. I met Joey Hamilton at Revolt Tattoos here in Vegas during season one of the shows and he did a dragon tattoo on me and then went on to win Ink Master - Season 3.
STRIPLV: Let’s go back to your days before the success of “Gigolos” and find out how you got to this point. You grew up on a farm in Wisconsin. Did you always know in the back of your mind that you were going to live a far different life than working on a farm?
HAWK: In the back of my mind, probably, definitely not in the front of it. I had no idea what I was going to do when I was young. I was always drawn to something bigger, and to Hollywood, performing music, and acting. I would work before school and play sports after. I was the captain of my wrestling team my senior year and lettered four times. I loved racing dirt bikes, snowboarding, playing my guitar and writing music. My dad was a hard worker, and motivated and driven—the opposite of lazy, and has his shit together. He’s very responsible and he sees most of the world not like that. I see most people as un-driven and unmotivated. I took chorus as a senior in high school, because there was a girl I wanted to date, and it actually worked out. I was always scared. I thought I couldn’t sing, and I was that same person. Everything I represent in my book, “Nick Hawk’s 100 Kicks In The Ass: A Guide To Gaining Confidence & Reaching Your Full Potential”, and tell you that you can do this—I was there. I was the worst person in the world. I didn’t learn anything, I didn’t apply myself, I didn’t do shit, I wasn’t smart, I wasn’t creative, I wasn’t good at anything. Then one day I had an odd moment of recognition. One day I broke down and I just lost it. I hate calling it a “born again experience,” because I’m not religious. I grew up with a Catholic background, so I’m pretty anti-religion. I do believe in something greater. I just had a day where I thought: “I hate living my life this way,” and I was a very angry, impatient person, as well. I had this light flash before my eyes. It’s probably exactly what a Christian would explain as this “born again Christian experience.” I was at this point in my life where I needed to make some changes, because I wasn’t happy. I was mad at the world. I was envious, I was jealous, I was poor in this rich community and I was the poorest person there and I hated everybody for it. I decided that I would apply myself and have an honest health-filled and positive life. That’s when I started reading more books, and I began with nutrition. Then I started working out and became a personal trainer. Having little money motivated me to become successful. I ran out of money in college. My parents were broke, so I joined the Air Force for a four-year-tour, so I would receive the GI Bill to have the rest of my college paid for. I was an Air Force Marksman and passed all of the tests to become Air Force Special Ops, but decided to transfer into a job where I was able to attend college full-time.
STRIPLV: Didn’t the idea of becoming an Air Force Special Ops provide enough thrill for you?
HAWK: I was told by several Special Ops that the washout rate was really high, and if you washout, you don’t get a good job. I was living in L.A. during my last year of college and I formed my company Explicit Strippers in Orange County. They are now in Los Angeles, Las Vegas, San Diego and Hawaii. I still have the company and I have a couple of strippers that rely on me for money. I graduated college in ‘07 with an English major that focused on creative writing, and a minor in journalism.
STRIPLV: Tell me about the books you have written.
HAWK: After the first two books, “Nick Hawk Gigolo Sexual Positions”, and “Sexoirs of a Gigolo: Nick Hawk”, I just finished my third book, “Nick Hawk’s 100 Kicks In The Ass: A Guide To Gaining Confidence & Reaching Your Full Potential,” and I’m so excited about it. I really hammered down recently, since I’ve been writing the book for three years. I kept changing things up because I wanted the information perfect. I had a list of books I wanted to read before completing my book, as well. It’s really not for the money, it’s for everybody else, and I want people to read the book. People can benefit greatly from it. I see our society as scared and weak and unconfident, not sure of themselves. I really think I can change lives with the information in this book. I’ve been on this journey of self-development, but also searching for confidence. I was a really scared person growing up. Scared of the world, scared to talk to girls, even my family. I was scared to death when I first started auditioning. My first audition, I was shaking so badly, I couldn’t read the paper in front of me. I have some really good information to help people transform as I did. The book is done and it’s being edited right now and I’ll pick a publisher as soon as that’s done.
STRIPLV: In your “Sexual Positions” book, what is the Nick Hawk position?
HAWK: Doggie style: One leg up and pushing her back down so she arches and then pulling her hair. The Lover: Sitting on the edge of a couch or a bed and having her sitting on top of you, facing you. It’s more skin on skin contact and you’re closer to her. It’s a really intimate position.
STRIPLV: You have written many articles for a variety of magazines, including Hustler and Men’s Health, AskMen and Girl Boner websites, and now Penthouse. Is this something that you enjoy and comes easily to you?
HAWK: It does now. I’m a firm believer that there’s no such thing as talent. Nobody is a good writer, nobody is a good thinker, and nobody is even intelligent, without applying themselves. It takes hard work. Anybody can do anything with hours of hard work. I don’t think I would say it comes easy. I’m more in tune to use my brain more effectively than I used to be. I put in the work and learned how to do it. I learned how to focus and learned how to think. I’ve applied myself, and anybody can do this. A couple of months ago, I accepted a position as an Editor at Penthouse. They also talked to me about doing a sex advice column. Originally Dave Navarro had one, but I guess it didn’t work out that well. They thought I could do “Another Day in the Life of a Gigolo”. It’s going to be a monthly publication with 1,500-2,000 words. I’m going to do a Top 10 list for them, as well.
STRIPLV: Tell me about “Turning On Light Bulbs.”
HAWK: I have a post: Turn On Light Bulbs. I enjoy turning on light bulbs with my clients, and people I’m talking to. If I can say something that makes them go: “Oh, I never thought about it that way,” that’s what I like to do. For every perspective in the book, I try to be a light bulb. It’s a new, fresh, honest perspective. It’s bold, it’s in your face, and this is how you have to be if you want to be confident. You have to be firm and sure of yourself. In the post I say something like: “Men, step up the game, or we might not be needed anymore.” Women are more driven than men. They work harder, they kind of want to one-up us, and men are getting lazy. Girls are even hitting the gym more than guys are in this day and age, and they’re really taking over the alpha male. Some parts of that I don’t like. I think women lose some of their great qualities of femininity when they step up in that role too much. I don’t think it’s necessary to go to that length to prove something. Be you and bring on the femininity, that’s what makes you special. It’s a total role reversal type thing and it’s messed up. I’m cool with equality and feminism and all that, but I don’t like it. Some guys like taking on that role, and it might be a lazier role or easier way out. If you have a strong woman, you need to be even stronger to please her.
STRIPLV: You got recruited for the “Gigolos” show. How close are you in real life to the Nick Hawk character you portray?
HAWK: It’s me, amplified! I’m not proud of everything I’ve done. I have seven years of me on TV and the public thinks that’s me now. I’m not happy with that. It’s an edited show, as well. So it’s me, edited. I can’t watch the show anymore. It’s been a hell of a ride, a hell of a journey, and a hell of an experience! When I first decided to do the show, I prayed it would go three seasons. I thought if it only went one or two, I would be a joke and would never be able to do anything again. No one would take me serious for my music or anything. But, then we went three and I was: “Holy Shit!” And it was opening some doors. Then we went four, then we went five and then six—“Holy Shit!” Right now, I can open any door. My favorite thing about doing it was that it paid off, because I knew it was a big risk. It was an adult show, it was a reality show, and it was an original Showtime series, starring role. It’s hard to say no to that, and I’m glad I didn’t and it also helped my gigolo career.
STRIPLV: Did you find it difficult being on camera with semi-nude and nude scenes?
HAWK: It really helped my confidence journey. This is 5-6 years after stripping down to my g-string, sometimes nude, and auditioning. At the beginning, I’d rather get naked in front of someone than have some lines to say that I had to remember. That took a lot of work and a lot of courage getting on that stage. Now, I love auditioning. I just had an audition for a reoccurring role in “Orange Is The New Black”. Now I love auditioning so much, the experience, because I studied that shit for five years, a couple of times a week. 80% of it is confidence, being able to take over a room. Confidence is the opposite of nervousness. Nervousness is a pointless emotion that hurts you and cripples you in the moment. It took me almost two seasons to get over being nervous. During season 3 or 4, I molded my penis. I had to get hard in front of 20 people with 3 cameras on me to do the mold for my penis. I remember thinking: “Where the fuck do I go from here?” It was such a ridiculous thing that I had to do for the show. I didn’t feel one thing. No nervousness! I’m definitely over that now! (laughter)
STRIPLV: Compare being on the Gigolos show to stripping, or porn…
HAWK: The show is a notch up from stripping and porn is a big notch up from the show. It’s pretty soft and innocent, compared to porn. If I was going to have tried porn, I would have done it three years ago, when I had a contract. I was talking to Vivid and we actually filmed an episode there. I decided it wasn’t right for me and my brand, and my business. I enjoyed stripping. I’ve done over 300 bachelorette parties. I did this male review at The Boogie in Anaheim and I was a cop act every Thursday night for a year and it was a blast. I enjoy entertaining women very much. I’ve considered doing my own male revue show here in Vegas.
STRIPLV: You also write and record music. Tell me about your song, “We Fight”.
HAWK: I don’t think I could ever express myself more honestly than that song. That’s everything I represent. It’s a culmination of who I am and who I’ve become. I call it my masterpiece. There are hundreds and hundreds of hours in writing and making these complex-rhyming patterns, and then I do the beats myself, as well. Then recording it and editing it, it took countless hours putting it together. I’ll put in the work again, but it will express me in a different form. I wanted this to be the purest expression of what I represent, so I won’t be able to duplicate that, and I think I succeeded.
STRIPLV: The age-old question of lyrics or music: Do you consider lyrics to be the most important part of the song to you?
HAWK: The energy, the beats… No, all of it. I was 100% involved in all of it. Even if you hear the beats without the lyrics, that’s 100% me, as well. Obviously the lyrics are very important, too. I try to do something different every time. I obviously try to step up my game every time, try to bring something new to the beat. I’ve always been the producer of my music. I used to be not that great at it, but I’m getting very good at it now. I think I could produce music fulltime at this point. I haven’t been able to say that until this last year. What I composed on the piano for “We Fight”, it’s some top level shit, and I’m really happy with it. It’s been nominated for a Hollywood Music Award.
STRIPLV: Live like you’ll die tomorrow… you almost sound hyper. Is there such a thing as relaxing for you? And if so, what is?
HAWK: I’m not hyper at all. It’s horrible to be hyper and strung out. I’m very anti-caffeine, as well. Fortunately, with my main job, the gigolo stuff, I only see a few clients a month, and they’re typically longer bookings. I maybe work 6 days a month, so I have 24 days to do all the things I want to do. It’s a form of meditation. Another thing I do is Jiu Jitsu, and train a few times a week. I just won the 2016 Nationals Brazilian Jiu Jitsu Championship in the “Brown Belt Open-Weight Division.” I play full court basketball as well at UNLV.
STRIPLV: You seem to just go, go, go.
HAWK: I don’t want to put that message out there. It’s not healthy to go, go, go. We need adequate sleep, (more than 6 or 7 hours of sleep), especially if you’re operating at your full potential, and you’re training hard, and especially when using your brain. It needs the rest to organize the thoughts. That’s how the creative process works. And you need time to reflect. Most people have 100 or more of these little bullshit things running around their heads that they haven’t made a good decision about or filed away—from doing stuff around the house to emails. And people put stuff off, and it doesn’t give you any time for quality thought. Believe me, I have everything stored away and I have a lot of time for quality thought. I try to challenge myself every day in some way, shape or form, especially being creative, if it’s writing or working on my music. My grand piano, my full drum set, my guitar and bass are out there in the living room; the keyboards are in here with my music production. I do something everyday to challenge myself. It’s like training at the gym. It becomes habit as well. Then you realize the benefits that it has, and if you’re not doing them, you’re not at your full potential. It’s not a good way to live your life and you’re selling yourself short.
STRIPLV: You say you only take three or four gigolo appointments a month?
HAWK: Typically, one a week. Unfortunately I’m not able to take all my bookings. I think I take less than half of them. I’ll see anybody one time. Usually I have three or four large bookings a month, like an overnight or a weekend, like I head for Belize tonight for six days. I’ll have one or two meet and greets a month, and usually that’s with a new client. They are not screened by looks, size, or age at all. I’d rather be with an older, heavier woman than a younger one with a bad attitude or bad hygiene.
STRIPLV: There’s a quote on your website: “If you’re not evolving, you’re dying.” Evolving in any form or something in particular?
HAWK: Yeah, if you’re not stimulating your brain, and there’s a lot of pieces to it, to grow, to dream, to be successful, to have new ideas and challenge yourself—yeah, you’re dying. Your brain will die away. Mentally sound people that continue to challenge themselves don’t get Alzheimer’s. They are sharper when they’re eighty than when they were thirty. It’s mainly with people who retire and think they’re worthless and ready to die. The most fascinating study that I talk about in the book is how quickly your health deteriorates after you retire. You may read the paper and watch the news, but you don’t challenge yourself and that’s why your brain starts to go.”
STRIPLV: You have the biggest bucket list I’ve ever seen. You’ve accomplished over 100 of them, with at least 60 more to do. At 34 years old, how do you plan to do these?
HAWK: There’s more than that! Everyday I put notes in my phone of things I hear about or things I want to do. Fortunately, I do a lot of them with my job. I get to travel a lot, and I always make the deal with someone that, if I go away with you, I’m going to do some cool shit, too. Even if you just want to relax, I’m going to go hike, or go dive with sharks. Usually my clients are a little more into that as well, and are outdoor people. I attempted to go hang gliding with one client two different times, but they both failed. Once it was too windy, and one time the plane broke. I jumped out of a plane with a client, and I shark cage dived with a client. Maybe half have been done with clients. I backpacked through Europe last summer on my own. I did that to finish my book, because I knew I’d spend a lot of time on planes and trains, something over 80-90 hours on them, going to six different countries—and I wrote the whole time.
STRIPLV: On your bucket list of accomplishments, you mention helping heal illness.
HAWK: I think that our brain has a very large ability to reverse the healing process. The healing process is something that is undiscovered and not understood by a lot of scientists and why it works. Scientists don’t even know why most of our brain functions while we’re sleeping, and what is actually happening. I think the power of our mind has a lot to do with the healing and with the sleeping. I think those are the two biggest keys. Obviously there are a lot of other things you have to put into that, as well. Nutrition, health and exercise, but I really think people can prevent it, but also cure it, and most of that is done mentally. I went to India for a week with a lady who had planned on it being her last hoorah. She was stage 3 or 4 terminally ill with cancer. We stayed in separate rooms and we were supposed to meet, and she didn’t come. When she didn’t answer the door, I broke the door down and she was lying on the ground, and I had to revive her. I saw many light bulbs go off as I talked to her. She had been given no direction and nowhere to go with this. I honestly feel I had a big role in what happened after that. She took my advice on just about everything, including ending the abusive relationship she was in. I got her motivated to not only live, but to go back to teaching, which she loved. She had a terrible diet, so I recommended this Green Vibrance that I’ve been taking every morning that contains just about every fruit and vegetable extract, plus vitamins and herbs. I saw the light bulbs go on and watched her become motivated and the cancer went into remission in a couple months after the trip. Who knows what could have really happened, but I honestly feel… and there’s other keys to it, but I’ve had other incidences where I’ve helped people get well from other illnesses. I think I understand the role that obesity and weight loss has in feeding illness.
STRIPLV: You are living such an extreme lifestyle and you want to experience so many things. What about marriage and family?
HAWK: Definitely not marriage, I’m very against that. I think marriage is everything that’s wrong with the world. I don’t hate everything it represents. There are good things about being in a committed relationship and it’s healthy for some people, if you’re with the right person. Marriage is set up on a lie. I firmly believe that. It’s impossible to commit to somebody forever. You don’t know who you’re going to be tomorrow, much less 6 months from now, much less 20 years from now. It’s great to commit to somebody and say I want to be with you for a long time, I plan on being with you for a long time, I hope we grow and change together on the same path. That’s okay, but you can’t promise someone you’ll be with them forever. It’s a lie. Once you get to the point in the relationship where your paths start splitting off, then you’ve lied to them and you’ve lost that trust, and then you start hating each other and that’s where the arguments are.
STRIPLV: Any closing thoughts?
HAWK: If I could leave anything back in (to) the world, it would be to learn before love. You need to learn and then love. And you need to learn to love yourself. I’ve eliminated all hate and anger from my life. I follow all my advice. It’s a process of training your brain like that.